Waiting for the phone to ring
I grow nervous
my heart starts to sing
and I'm wondering
what she'll sound like
my mind ever so curious

The Phone rings
and I jump from the sound
I pick up the phone
and say hello
You sound cute
was the answer
Her voice sounds
So Angelic
that I knew
I would never forget it

I've known her for a long time
Yet I've never thought of her
in this kind of light
She gave my heart flight
by the sound or her voice
that has me bound

The connection to our phones dies
I curse and dispeise
I fell in love
with that voice
but I dont know
if she's straight
or not
I hope not
because her voice
has caught me
and won't let go

  Its about my friend Jen. We've been friends for a long time, and yesterday was the first time that I talked to her on the phone. She has such a beautiful voice <3!

What is this
inside of me
it flys away
and comes back so easisly

No matter how much I try
It will always come back
and then just stacks
Higher and Higher
Untill it decides
to fly away

She's trapped
in a corner
Darkness
surounds her
hidding her face
behind her legs
as she tastes

Thoughts
Feelings
Seem to be growing
in my head
wanting to bleed

I feel lonely
because I don't have
someone at my side
to be romantic with
to sit on the beach
and watch the tide

I'd write poems about her
and compare her
to beautiful flower
being in awe
at her lovely stare

I wonder
what he thinks of me
I wonder
if he dreams of me
I wonder
if he ever seemed
to notice me in a different way
Or maybe this is make beileve
and this will all decay

Is this just a school girl crush
maybe just a lust
Every time I see him
I freeze up
and stutter
The butterflies start to flutter

All I know is that
I want him
I crave him
and I wish he was mine
but he's never given a sign
he drives me crazy
I wonder if he thinks of me
that way
Maybe one day
he will give a sign
and then he'll be mine

   It's about Dave, who works at Chipotle. I woke up in the middle of the night & couldn't go back to sleep so I wrote this, but now that I really read it....it sounds like I'm a stalker....I must of been doing sumethin......

A shadow of a thought
roams through the hollow
It can not be fought
you must follow

It will happen

Feeling so high
that I could die
from the heat
you put me in

Release me
from this pain
from this agony
Set me free
from this game
it's driving me insane

Scars
from tha past
that goes by so fast
When was the last
time I cut?
The last
time I mutilated?
The last
time I wanted to be dead?
to be rid
of all this dread?

No one
understands how I feel inside
I want to die
I want my life
to pass me by

One Day

Cut deeper into me
Let me bleed
Let them see
How much I need
Mutilation
the sensation
of the feeling
that I'm receving
that your not seeing

You shove pills down my throat
trying to let the demons out
DON'T YOU POUT!
CUTTING LETS THE DEMONS OUT!
I scream & shout
Yet you shove even more down me
This is not setting them free

I've done fine without the pills
but you just keep getting refills
Why can't you chill
and let me fight them myself

I wish I could throw them away
but you make the pills stay
I listen to what the shrinks say
It just makes the demons delay
Don't you pout
Cutting lets the Demons out





    I got mad at my mom because she's making me take a higher precription dosage then what I've usually been taking like I use to take 10g's & now I'm taking 15g's. It sucks ass. I've been fine with the pills before so I want to try to go with out the pills but my mom would find out so.....I don't know....

Runaway
from everything
from everyone
Don't let them
control you
and turn you into
what they have become

Keep your secrets
don't let them out
don't let them shout
They'll have fits
while they nip
at your soul
and you body turns cold

Sow your mouth shut
don't let them know
cut it away
don't let them know
that your GAY